How I saw God?

Seeing a proof before believing is my normal tendency and could also be true for alot of people. For the past couple of years I was trained to believe in proof both as a student of applied physics and materials science. I often encounter equations which have great consequences which are mathematically valid and at the same time physically observable. I often analyze X-ray diffractograms to prove that a material exist or has been formed by the presence of crystal planes specific for a material as can be seen from an XRD (X-ray diffraction) graph. Our lives are influenced by what we do and how we think everyday. As such, I often look for a proof of God’s existence.

It has been said that we must see God in every person that we encounter. This seems to be a very heroic act especially when we are in front of an enemy or another person whom we do not like at all. It is a very hard task and based on my experience we often slip into failure.

Blessed are those who believe but do not see. This phrase has often been repeated to us over and over again especially during these days when people need a tangible proof for anything they would want to believe in. Take for example love. One of the most abused words in the dictionary. Love is blind as they say but how about those people whose love is founded on material things or the things which they can extract from their friends, family and partners. Will a man in love be able to justify his love for a woman by taking her to expensive restaurants or buying her expensive goods? Of course not. If I were a millionaire I can easily do that! I could easily hand a Louis Vuitton to a woman. Maybe not just to a single woman but also to another and another and another and so and so. Will a woman justify her love for a man if she were able to give up her body for the guy that she is madly in love with? It may be logical for some or alot of people but I tell you it will not. Sometimes to believe in love we need only to look at other people’s sacrifice. Take for example, our mothers. Fortunately I grew with one if you have none then look at the one who raised you I’m sure he or she loves you so much. A mother sacrifices alot for her child such that it would be impossible not to cite even one sacrifice our mother has done for us. To love is to be able to sacrifice. It is more of an action and it may often not be as tangible as material goods. It can be observed but can be easily taken for granted. Why am I saying this? I saw a blind man participating in the Seven Last Words weeks ago. He came inside the church with a cheerful face and aura being guided by someone whom I think he does not personally know. The blind man could have asked someone to find him a seat. When I saw the blind man I realized that he can only hear and he obviously cannot see. He was lucky that he was deprived of the sense of sight because faith rarely needs sight. Faith need not be seen, it must be heard. He was blind yet I know, I believe that he has formulated a beautiful image of God in his mind. At that time I closed my eyes and I was greeted by darkness with only the sound of the crowd accompanying me. I tried my best to believe and yet I still lack faith like the doubting Saint Thomas but I know that I have seen God that day through the blind man.

Healing of the blind man by Brian Jekel

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